I’m sorry to say that today is rather a bad day. I don’t write these articles in order, so I know what’s coming. But I thought I would present you with a song to get you ready for it. It’s Elvis Costello’s “I Want You” off Blood & Chocolate. It is a supremely creepy song. I remember doing this. After a relationship ends, tormenting yourself over it.
I remember a woman I knew thought one line was wrong, “Did you call his name out as he held you down.” She thought it should be “as I held you down.” True, that has a certain power, but it totally misses the point of song: the imagination of just what the absent lover is doing. And yet, still you want her. You want to protect her; you want to kill her; you just want her.
I am very glad to be past those times. I have certain expectations of people in my life. I am disappointed and lonely at times. But no one has the kind of power over me that Costello sings about. And it may be the height of hubris to say that no one ever will have that kind of power over me again. It isn’t that it couldn’t happen. But I just would not let it happen. I don’t have that kind of trust in human nature. But you can all laugh heartily at me if I ever allow it to happen. And as you doubtless already know, I would write about it here first.
When I hit play it showed up as a song called “Psycho.” Not sure why but it was pretty creepy.
As for the actual song this was supposed to be-I have never been that obsessed with anyone so I really cannot talk about it outside of the context of work. I know I would not laugh at you if you fell in love again. I might feel bad if it was an unhealthy relationship but I don’t laugh at people in love, I look at them like aliens.
That was yesterday’s song. A great one!
I’m not necessarily talking about love but a certain intensity of love.
And so it is. Good thing I did not listen to it yesterday, I could not finish it and turned it off because of how upsetting it was.
I did get the type of love you are referring to. It is a fever that infects you and I avoid it at all costs.
Then you missed the best line, “Mama, why won’t you get up?”
Yes, “infection” is the right word.
I looked up the lyrics so I knew about that line.
I’ve noticed that too, where the embedded video is actually from the last post with embedded video. But only when using my phone.
Strange. I can’t replicate it.
Good. I wouldn’t be concerned. It doesn’t show up every time on my phone, either. In fact I haven’t noticed it in a while.